Day 24.

Here's an insert from a book...

“When I get lonely these days, I think: So BE lonely. Learn your way around loneliness. Make a map of it. Sit with it, for once in your life. Welcome to the human experience. But never again use another person's body or emotions as a scratching post for your own unfulfilled yearnings.” 
 Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

I thought about this one for a while when I read it...I liked it...it seemed like it was saying something to relate to me but I wasn't quite sure what...I knew I liked it...just had to think deeper.

I'm never alone...and when I am I force myself to be busy...so I'm not left with my thoughts...I surround myself these days with positive people but at the end of the day I'm still not sure who I am...I don't give myself time to be lonely.  I don't let myself fall into the human experience.  I have to though, in order to heal...be alone...with my thoughts...find out who I am and what I'm really searching for.  I know a little bit of what I want.  But scared to take those chances to get it...why...why am I so comfortable with using another person's body or emotions as a scratching post.....chances....there's a thought...I always leave it up to fate...which I probably always will but...what's wrong with mixing some chances in there too?


Peace, Love, Luck & Laughter...xo

1 comment:

  1. Megan24.1.12

    Honestly, I have always looked up to you. Even though we aren't that close (even though we're family). I've always idolized you.. You have two amazing children, and even though you don't have a "legitimate 9-5 job" you are doing what you love to make money.

    As I said, I have idolized you for as long as I can remember and with Emily was born I can remember thinking: "oh my goodness, heath has the most beautiful baby girl, and she is doing what she's always wanted(photography). And she just seems so happy!"

    And regardless if you are with terry or not, you have to remember that you do not need any man to help you along with your happiness. Not to mention you already have an amazing one (Cohen).

    But now, more then ever, I thought I would let you know. Peace, Love, Luck & Laughter...xo
    ~ Your baby cousin, Megan. <3