30.3.12

Day 90.

There is no HOPE....

This seems like it's getting off on the wrong foot when infact....it's a positive thought...

HOPE...is a feeling that you have when you feel like there is no answer or solution.  There is no HOPE for me....there is only knowing.  People say...I hope this works out....I hope I get good grades and the most common...I hope they get better.   When you think about it....and it really comes down to the facts....Hoping things work out s a choice you are making to avoid the situation...hoping you get good grades is like saying....well I want to but....maybe I won't try my hardest....and hoping someone gets better is like trying to control the tides....and good luck to the person trying to do that shinannigans.  Don't get me wrong...I like the idea of HOPE....but I would rather BELIEVE.  I know I'm gonna do well on the test because I'm going to make sure of it...I will believe in myself...I know this will work out....because I am going to make sure of it....Being sick I believe needs a positive experience and attitude to get better...when you believe that you want to make it though and you believe you want to hold on...your body can produce miracles....I've seen it....I have seen someone hold on longer than expected and let go when they felt they were ready. 

KNOWING is what will get you places in life....know what you are doing is powerful...and you control that power....imajine....you have the ability to control your world.....AMAZING....what an amazing feeling knowing is....

29.3.12

Day 89.

Look forward....Don't look back...it's not the direction you are going.....

28.3.12

Day 88.

I want to apologize in advance for my lack of posting....It's been some time now....since my last post..mostly because I no longer have 24/7 Internet access.  However today my post will be amazing for those of you who have been waiting for some inspiration. 
So Here it goes....the Pursuit of Happiness....


Everyone has bad days...everyone has ups and downs, highs and lows, ins and outs....but the main thing is that you keep moving forward. Keep looking beyond the storm clouds and into the great unknown.  Keep your head high your steps steady. 

There is a goal in this world we are all striving for and that is to live...each and everyday in complete happiness.  In order to do this you have to pursue it.  It is not going to come to you easily...even the luckiest people have to work for happiness sometimes.  The pursuit of Happiness is a journey no one else can make for you...nor would you want them to.  Only YOU know where you are in the moments when your smile lights up a room, your laughter echos the walls and your heart beats louder than a drum....Keep those moments with you always....cherish them hold them and never let them go.  In moments when the world seems like it's falling around you...stop close your eyes....look...find those moments.  Pursue your Happiness. 

Memories are only there if you make them....they will only last if you chose to remember them.  Moments are just that...seconds....split seconds....moments....before they are gone.  Life...is a one time deal....you either make the most of it, or you don't....there's no back tracking.  You can't say opps....forgot to make that moment count....I better turn back time and do that again. (unless you have a time machine, and if you do....one.....why aren't you showing it to the world you genius mastermind you...and two....if you aren't going to share you should at least sell trips for obscene amounts of money so you can roll in it later - but I should get a free trip since it's my idea)  You have one chance....one single chance to find your happiness in life....don't lose it....don't let it go....don't walk away...don't listen to anyone else to make it happen....just make it happen....make it happen today tomorrow and every day after.  Make it Happen !

I want to share with you all that I have a disorder....called panic disorder...I've struggled with it for many many many years...makes me do some crazy things sometimes...sometimes it doesn't show for years...other times it's day after day...I use to think it was impossible to get out of a panic attack alone.  I use to think I could never overcome the sensation...and sometimes I still think that way...but lately...I've had someone show me....just how strong I am and how I don't need to have anyone else believe in me but me....I can control my body my happiness, my disorder....in good ways.  I don't know if that was their intention to show me I can...by leaving me to my own dismay....but they did.  Amazingly....they did.  You want to know my secret....I pursue my Happiness.....

The fact of life is....what doesn't kill you...( which trust me when I say there are plenty of painful heart breaking moments that you think might)  MAKES YOU STRONGER....even in your weakest moments....you have strength. Find your courage....give yourself the strength to dust yourself off (especially after you fail at making your time machine work and it blows up in your face...kidding......seriously I'm kidding...please still take me if it works) and try again.  In order to succeed in life you first must try...because deciding not to try is failing before you even take a step...positive thinking can take you to places you never dreamt possible