Day 25.

I want to share with you a quote, since yesterday's post I have been thinking a lot about chances, and what taking them means to me.  There is a quote I like that refers to chances that I love and never read to much into it until now...

You'll always miss 100% of the shots you don't take.  ~Wayne Gretzky


Chances are risks you take, not risks given...you have to make the choice to take the shot...sometimes you miss and sometimes you don't but without taking the chance...you lose out all together.  Dreams are chances...full of risks, and hope.  They don't always come true but reaching for them makes life worth living.  There's something I have always wanted to do...and soon I'm gonna take that chance....to make something more of myself...for me...

Imagine all the shots I've missed so far because I didn't even try...amazing...to think what trying would have done...


I want to make another note on today's post and this note is special...because last night and today I was honoured...last night and today I was blessed and proven that THIS BLOG...this very blog...is doing what it's purpose serves...not just for me...but for others.


I had the opportunity to reach out to someone...and they felt the need to reach out to me.  This blog has been keeping them positive...or at least it's where they go to get positive thinking started.  It may not always get you right to positive at the moment but it makes you think and rethink your ups and downs.  


I was so TRULY amazed that this was happening...someone felt as though I was who they could talk to...who they could reach out to....and this someone may not know it...but in doing that...they helped me...they put a little more positivity in my world...They blessed it without knowing.  I'm so grateful...


What an amazing person they are...stronger than they know...braver...more beautiful...I wish them "enough"  I wish that they let fate take them to a beautiful life.  I wish that they learn the lesson I learned last night...that it just goes to show you...hard work and positivity can really change the world...and make a difference in someones life...


Peace, Love, Luck & Laughter...xo

Day 24.

Here's an insert from a book...


“When I get lonely these days, I think: So BE lonely. Learn your way around loneliness. Make a map of it. Sit with it, for once in your life. Welcome to the human experience. But never again use another person's body or emotions as a scratching post for your own unfulfilled yearnings.” 
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love


I thought about this one for a while when I read it...I liked it...it seemed like it was saying something to relate to me but I wasn't quite sure what...I knew I liked it...just had to think deeper.


I'm never alone...and when I am I force myself to be busy...so I'm not left with my thoughts...I surround myself these days with positive people but at the end of the day I'm still not sure who I am...I don't give myself time to be lonely.  I don't let myself fall into the human experience.  I have to though, in order to heal...be alone...with my thoughts...find out who I am and what I'm really searching for.  I know a little bit of what I want.  But scared to take those chances to get it...why...why am I so comfortable with using another person's body or emotions as a scratching post.....chances....there's a thought...I always leave it up to fate...which I probably always will but...what's wrong with mixing some chances in there too?


Chances?.....


Peace, Love, Luck & Laughter...xo

Day 23.

“The true measure of an individual is how he treats a person who can do him absolutely no good.”


Honestly...how amazing does it feel to do something for someone out of the kindness of your heart and know that you want and will get nothing in return.  It feels amazing for me...and satisfying.   I love helping others whether it's someone whose car broke down or giving an extra few cents to the lady ahead of me riffling through her purse to find 3 cents because she doesn't want to break her 20.00.  Either way I'm left with a humble feeling...like I have restored someones believe in humanity again.


But I also want to leave you with another thought....


What satisfaction does it give you when you do something to someone to purposely make them feel inadequate, like making fun of someones misfortune, or by taking something from them you don't even care for only to let them go without...like the last piece of chocolate cake...you didn't want it...you just didn't want someone else you were angry with to have it....
How long does that satisfaction last? Or does it?  Life isn't about taking...it's about giving...depriving others of something you could do to make their life better at no risk to you is not gratitude and if it is...trust me....it's short lived...


Do something amazing today for a perfect stranger...see how good it feels and I'm sure they will pay it forward and do something kind for someone else...give to those you have been taking from....out of spite, jealousy or hurtful grudging...it's not worth your soul...


Peace, Love, Luck & Laughter....xo

Day 22.

“Things don't go wrong and break your heart so you can become bitter and give up. They happen to break you down and build you up so you can be all that you were intended to be.” 


This goes hand in hand with yesterday's post...well sort of.  How many times in your life have you been disappointed with the outcome of something.  Broke your heart or spirits?  And how many times have you bounced back...becoming stronger and braver and more than you were before.  


Everyone's book is written differently...some is easier than others to read or follow...but each life experience makes you who you are...creates the amazing person that you have become. Each page written creates a you that no one else can copy and that YOU cannot hide, try as you might...one day your gonna stand up and be YOU under that cape you wear.  No one can mask you but yourself and no one can unleash you either...just you...be proud of the book you have...its an original, an amazing adventure full of ups and downs...and there's still sooooo much more to be written.


And Remember : Being down doesn't last forever and neither does the hurt.  Once you understand where and why...it's that much easier.  This leads me back to fate...something I feel sooo strongly about.  It works in ways no one could ever imagine.


Peace, Love, Luck & Laughter...xo

Day 21.

We cannot adjust the wind...but we can direct the sails...

There's so much meaning I take from this quote...it's going on my children's walls one day.  So they can ready it everyday and one day get something our of it when trouble comes their way.

Really think about it...life hands you situations you can't always control happening...like a breakup...but it's how you deal with them that makes all the difference...you can give up...letting yourself fall into the storm and depression...or you can adjust the sails, pulling yourself out and away from what could be a bad situation and find another path to happiness.

Maybe it's finding yourself...going on a path following which ever way the wind leads you...being directed by someone else until you learn...your going into merky water and in a destructive path that would potentially damage who you are...or damaging your boat and effecting how your boat will sail for the rest of your life's journey.  It's time for you to take control of that...use it...change the direction of your sails...turn and make the right adjustments to keep you on a path you choose for yourself...not that the wind has chosen for you...

Adjust your sails...to suit yourself in all and any of lifes situations...make the journey an amazing one...

Peace, Love, Luck & Laughter...xo

Day 20.

Questions....

A few people have been asking me a lot of questions about myself lately...it's hard to answer some and easy to answer others...

How are you?  Ohhh  I've had better days...or Oh I'm doing great today thanks for asking

What you plan on doing this week coming?  I'm not sure...don't plan too far a head these days...

What are you doing with your life?  What do you want?  .......

That....that one question...gets me every time....

In the past 20 days I have been doing some heavy soul searching...and trust me some days I feel like I'm getting no where fast.  Some days I feel like I'm making headway but not sure which direction I'm going in.  

Being lost is a scary feeling...one most don't like...I'm one of those most.  As kids when we are lost we are told to stay where we are until someone finds us...as adults in the path of life....if we get lost...we need to find our own way.  Something that takes time, patience, strength and persistence.  

I'm really lost...I don't know who I am...but I know where I want to go...to find ME again...so I'm gonna keep walking and hope I can find myself somewhere, someday...

Peace, Luck, Love & Laughter...xo

Day 19.

When it's just you....

and the world seems like it has shut the door on you...do you give up.......on it........on yourself.........on everything?

There's been a few times I've done this...I have turned to bottles, to meds, to a lot of things I'm not proud of...I'm ready to look in the mirror now after this short journey I'm still traveling on and say "I can do this...I WILL do this..."  alone or with support by my side......I will...I've done it before and I will do it again each time getting stronger and using less things to lose my focus on what life is really about.

The world may seem like it has shut the door, but it's not locked.  Even if it is...and the key is lost...it's not lost forever....there are other ways to open that door, to break back into the world....don't count me out yet...I'm still on my way.

I am full of sorrow when I say I chose the other day to beat the door down with a bottle...as we all know...bottles don't break doors...doors break bottles and bottles break spirits when you are drowning in your own self pitty...you might not even know you are (I didn't, which just goes to show I'm not healed yet) until you access it and it takes control.

I moved a step backwards but just because I stepped back does not mean I can no longer walk forwards again.  I will take longer strides to get back on track...I think in realizing what I have done...I'm already half way back....

Peace, Love, Luck & Laughter...xo

Day 18.

Say what you mean, and mean what you say....this is soooo important. because what you say can effect who hears it forever.  It can change the way they think about you...the way they look at the world...or even the way you think about yourself.

EVERYONE does it.  Once in a while...in the heat of the moment...someone says something they wish they could take back.  But the fact of the matter is you can't.  They can choose to write it in sand and let it be forgiven, but it will never be taken back.  And if you persist to say things you don't mean, as many times as they write it in the sand to forgive you...they will grow tired.  The will maybe choose not to place you into their house of cards once your words have knocked it down once again.

Children are SUCH a big part of this.  They are like sponges. Their minds remember EVERYTHING! Sometimes it's not even something worth remembering.  But they will.  When you say something to a child or that a child over hears it changes their outlook on the world.  Their outlook on you.  They are looking to you for guidance to be a role model.  A mentor.  Show them what a good human being is...what it is to love one another...to nurture.  They are looking for safeness, support, and acceptance.  Don't use words that could alter what a beautiful life they could grow up to have...it's the one thing to look forward to in life for a child...growing up...

Peace, Luck, Love & Laughter...xo

Day 17.

"Not everything that can be counted counts, and not everything that counts can be counted."

- Albert Einstein

Think about that quote for a moment...what do you think of when you read it...it's deep...for me anyways...I use to think money mattered because it made life simpler, I use to think that possessions and having nice things mattered....don't get me wrong, both these things do go nicely in life but without them...I am just as happy.  My family can't be counted...per say...but they are everything.

If my house burnt down with everything in it...and all I stood in was bare feet and a bathrobe (and even if that was gone it would be fine...only I'm trying to save you all some uncomfortable images) and all I had in my arms was my two children...I'd be fine,  I would have no money, not nice furniture, no heat no power, nothing but love.  I'd be ok because I'd still have a reason to wake up every morning...I'd still have my happy place to go...I'd still have everything that counts...and actually...I CAN count them...one....two....and their toes...one...two...three.................ten. :)

Life is about the little moments...the little smiles...the little countless things...

Peace, Love, Luck & Laughter...xo

Day 16.

Actions speak louder than words....

Some of the greatest inspiration and wises wisdom comes from people who remain unknown 

I love this saying...it really says it all...

Watch your thoughts, they become words.

Watch your words, they become actions.
Watch your actions, they become habits.
Watch your habits, they become your character.
Watch your character, it becomes your destiny.

Thoughts become words...really they do...have you ever noticed when your emotions take over and you just BLURT out whatever it is you are thinking....sometimes it's good like "I love you so much" and sometimes its bad like "I hate you"....(which reminds me...I wish that word did not exist in the English language)  and sometimes its funny or odd like "I wonder if squirrels store their nutted poop like they do their real nut gatherings"

Those words then become your actions...usually after an "I love you" there is a hug a kiss or some other sign of affection which draws you to have more feelings for that person...after an "I ***e you" (sigh) after one of those you either lash out in more anger or continue with a few more choice words...

These then snowball into habits....but here's the key, only if you are allowed to...the other person receiving the compliment or negativity has the option to accept or remove it from their life...if it's reciprocated it is then forced into habit....letting a negative comment towards you or someone you love slip by on "accident" (which reminds me again I believe there are no accidents only lessons learned) this allows the person doing it to force habit...habits are very easy to attain but very hard to break...I know this for a fact...I am a long time nail biter...kicked it a few times and always went back....

These habits then develop who you are....they become your character...and that shows the world who you are...hard to break and becomes a lifestyle...your.....destiny....

Don't let your destiny be full of people who are hurtful or harmful...and most defiantly don't be one of those people yourself...do yourself a favor and watch your thoughts, your words, your actions, your habits, your character, and your destiny...

Peace, Love, Luck & Laughter...xo

Day 15.

Today, I am happy...my life has been getting more organized, more mentally stable and more focused.

Today I want to tell you what happiness is to me...and want you to share a few things that make you happy.

Happiness can be given to you in an instant....and no one can take it away...just find those people, places and things (or as my English teacher would say NOUNS) that make you happy and go to that place in your heart...this is where eternal happiness comes from...I promise...once you find out what makes you happy...you never have to be sad...I've been learning this and it really works.

Happiness is....a walk at night...when the sky is clear on a gravel path, where the only sound I hear is the wind though the trees, the gravel underfoot and the sound of myself breathing.  The smell of still chilled air though my nose and into your lungs makes me calm...the starry sky full of angels watching over each and every one of us brings me peace.  Sometimes I like to just stop...lay down..and stare, smell, listen...

Happiness is....a beach, with warm breeze blowing my hair, salty sea kissing my face as the waves crash, soft sand massaging my feet and tickling my toes...Jumping through the waves as the cool water hits my skin...feeling like a kid again...careless, carefree....climbing on rocks to find a flat one to sit, watch the birds flying and diving, smelling the water, feeling the spray,  and hearing the waves crash (it's really no wonder they make cds with this stuff on it) there's nothing quite like it...

Happiness is...my camera...capturing a shot, a moment, that could escape the memory at any moment until it's frozen still forever, hearing the laughter of the child in front of it, or feeling the joy in the persons heart as they look into the eyes of their newborn...something I can see them doing but they could never watch themselves.  Capturing the last moments loved ones spend with one another before their journey on earth has ended...or making someone look at themselves the way I see them...a work of art...a unique beauty, and individual and seeing joy as they realize what I've seen to begin with....

Happiness is...the laughter of my growing older little girl and my not so little, little boy.  The sparkle that hits there eyes as they realize something amazing in the world.  The excitement they gather, the warmth from their hearts...the kisses from their little lips and the hugs from their tiny hands and arms...the small I love you's they say as I tuck them in tight...or just because....

These are just a few of mine...There are many places I could go to find happiness....I hope if you think long enough you have a large list as well.  This life gives us so much to be grateful for...use it...implement it in your daily lives, and let it keep you happy.

Peace, Love, Luck & Laughter...xo

Day 14.

It is what it is....

The gifts and blessings you are given in life are more often seen.  Not many times when something is done or happens to us that is nice do we go without noticing.  At those moments we take it for what it is.  Never questioning.

When something ill-fated happens to us we ponder on why good things happen to bad people...or why me what did I do to deserve this....a lot of people also work off Karma thinking that they have done something to someone that the are being punished.  I know for a fact now...that when bad things happen...it's to build you...build your character.  To "see what you are made of..." 


A lot of times we choose the path we take in life but when something obstructs your path like an obstacle, you then can choose two things....to cry why me...OR to accept it for what it is and find a solution.  You may be on that path a long time trying to figure it out...or you may have realized that you need to go back to walk back and take another route or revisit and old path but in the end you will receive a reward.  Maybe it's something good that has been done for you....maybe it's a blessing in disguise or maybe it's just self reward that you have gotten through something, become stronger and have proven to yourself if no one else that YOU CAN.

There really is nothing better than knowing you have done what you believe in your heart is right and accomplishing something you never thought possible!

Peace, Love, Luck & Laughter...xo